sick sick n more sick....

So here am I...last time I blogged it was more so because I was grounded at home due to an injury and this time ..well..the delhi weather has got to me and I am sufferring from what is commonly known as Viral fever..n doc said that he suspects it to be malaria as well....:((((((( god please save me!!

and as luck would have it...or rather as madame luck really enjoys to play around with me..June was to be a month of adventure...great things to do..lotsa things to learn n what not...mannn..i had it all planned!! and as planning is always supposed to go wrong..my june has actually started on a note which is as opposite as > is to < !! m talking maths guys! :)
this year after some mind boggling trip to rishkesh/haridwar and doing crazy cliff jumps / rafting , I had promised myself that come summer and 1st thing I would do is learn swimming! So i enrolled for it and my classes were supposed to start in june and wham ...here i m just writing about my so-called plan of action! :-(
then I had planned for some singing & dance classes...but man ..the way my throat croaks with all the red lights from my voicebox..frogs would sing better than me ! *sheepish*
good things about falling sick ..rather only good thing about falling sick ..is that u dont attend office! yipppeeee! yipeeee did i say???
well believe it or not...i have some cruel monsters in my office who have no idea what ettiquetes mean and also..how a sick person feels! wow!I have been receiving continous calls every 10 mins from my team guys..why cant they consolidate stuff and ask me at one go???..n also rather why do they ask me things like whom should i send this mail back to?? I mean dude...to the person who sent it to u!!! OBVIOUSLY!!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!
m i supposed to train people on these levels??
i never understand how my company has managed to stay at tops for last so manyyyy years inspite of such duds working in it!!
well..my sickness has made me an ardent fan of the idiot box! I love watching movies and have now been subjecting myself to all sorts of movies that hollywood/chinkiwood (i mean those hu-hah martial movies) make..
I saw some nice movies over the telly in this last 1 week that i m home!
The Princess Diaries
Blind Dating
Pretty Woman
Local Color *zzzzzborrrreeeeezzzzzzzz*
Alex & Emma *damn cute*
The Myth (blv me,mallika sherawat looks pretty in this)
27 dresses *cute-cute-cute*
The Infernal Affairs *great action*
Australia ..finally saw it
X - Men Wolverine ...mannnn i finally saw itttt!!

and there were some more very nice movies, which I saw....but I cant remember the names! Its called the ageing process!Ageing reminds me...2 weeks back I got a face cream which had all herbal products as contents in it and since I am allergic to chemicals in every way possible (you can actually lab test a product on me ..to check the chemical content :P ), so I started using this cream and it really suited me and my skin loooks much better now...but guess what it read on top of it...Herbal Anti-Ageing cream .... :(((((((( mummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmyyyy!!!!!!!! this is so not fair..anyways I have been able to hide it from my friends till now :D

So back to telly...I have been watching all the channels and blv me, there are very few which actually produce their own stuff..most of them show the reruns of their sister channels or news channels show reruns of comedy shows!! *sheeeesh*!!!
So I am left with AXN...n its not a channel you should watch when you are sick...Coz I saw a guy sleep in a plastic bag with some 2000+ poisoinous snakes...I saw another guy sleep in a bath tub with some 20 odd buckets of scorpions poured over him...I saw a guy who had a metal rod pass through his head ...!! and yeah finally I also saw an old guy who is trying to spread awareness about Breast cancer by asking women on the roads to donate their bras and then tying it up in a big ball of bras..i am sure it must be somewhere on internet!! just wondering ..what if this happens in india?!?! i dunno..i feel that there are far better n innovative ways to spread awareness! but maybe I am wrong..maybe! i dunno...

So guys I just hope I recover soon from this goddamn viral thing and get back on my feet and plans! :)
If anyone of you are reading, Please do pray for me...i knw its pretty selfish to come on blogworld after ages and then ask ppl to pray...but then thats whats frnds are for ..right?

:-)

Take Care, Ciao!

Lazy Bums deserve no Better!!

Looking at my previous posts..Its always been of about me coming back to blogworld and then finally not keeping up with the promise!Its only now..when Iam homebound after a nasty fall from the stairs and injuring quite a lot of bones in the process(nothing too serious though)...that I am sitting in front of my comp!!...truly ...lazy bums deserve no better !

Anyways...lots has happened in life since last post! thats one advantage of posting after a longgg time:P last time I posted recession was not such a bad word at all...now its THE word you hear everywhere! geez...m really bored of all the talks of layoffs, salary cuts, no promotions...blah blah blah...well..its happening..n we all got to do deal with it..as long as we can!

One great thing thats happened is..I have a multiplex come up just next to my house and now watching movies is damnnnn easy :D no petrol...no time n effort spending :D happened to catch Delhi 6 on it..Movie was okie dokie fun..I liked the color n vibrancy n waheeda in the movie..rest was all passe!I want to watch 13B next..how can I resist maddy's smile....:))))) but I have not been able to find any company for it..and even missed the womens day special they had..guess what..on march 8..it was free show for women all thru the day..n mannnn i missed it too! :Btw..It was holi yesterday..and It was good to celebrate it in a decent manner..reason being my twisted bones n my chotu sa nephew :) ...he really enjoyed the fun more than anyone else in the house...ended the festival day with a mouthfull of Biryani n of course my eternal fave..dahi bhalla :))) Btw...it looks something like this :)




yummmyyy...aint it??
Anyways...will continue to post further...and till then ciao :)

RaNdOm rAndOm ...and raNDom.. :-) n lengthy tooo! phew

This is an absolutely Random & lenghty post..so read it at your own peril..
There is no start or end to this one..I am just writing it in one flow..with whatever comes to my mind...

As I always say..I have been away from blogworld for quite sometime and that too..with no reasons whatsoever..I feel I am very busy, but I don't know what am I busy in actually :D
Professional Life has been quite busy and I have moved into a new technology and domain (IT people would understand that :P) ..and everyone around me feels that I am lucky to have got this oppurtunity at this stage..especially looking at the economy situation ...whoa!...finallllyyy somebody feels ki I am more lucky to be doing something..Its been quite a time since I felt lucky :P ..I am happy that I now realise that career is not just about earning money and becoming a manager soon..but builiding a ground so solid, so that you can stand on it for the rest of your professional life :-) ..I voluntarily gave up the position of a manager and decided to go for learning again [ok ok...nothing humble about it ...the technology I am learning is worth all this ;-) ] so that I could be a 'desired' resource in the market..and it feels good..even though I cant jhaado my managergiri like my good ole days :P but koi na..woh din bhi jaldi aayenge ;-) ..keep up the good work darling!

I realise that I have become more mature in my attitude and outlook..signs of entering 30s maybe...ooops! I am now more concerned about buying properties/houses rather than my usual shopping sprees...hehehehe...now thats quite a change in me! I want to be a owner of a damn nice pretty house in Delhi NCR soon..oh boy I really wish that day comes sooooon in my life :) veryyy sooon ...sighhhh!

On the personal side...I have been blessed with an adorable nephew and he has become all of 3 months now...I must say..He and I are completely addicted to each other :-) and yeah..there is nothing more comforting and reassuring than the warmth of a child's touch and that awesomely precious toothless smile ..I love you baby sooooo much! and of course, my niece has already become 2.5 yrs old and extreeeemelyyyy naughty! Man..now I know what my parents went through brining up me and my bro! I completely agree when its said that you realise the importance of your parents much much more when you have kids of your own.. I could not agree more!phew!!

On the shaadi front..nothing much is happening..Somehow I am tired of all this shaadi game..arranged marriage and what not...somewhere i think I have lost interest..I believe in the concept of marriage and kids ..but only if its with someone whom you can bear for the rest of your life! Else..I think I am able enough to live life on my own and of course I lovvvee kids..so adoption is something which I can go for at a later stage of life :-)

and oh yeah...this shaadi thing reminds me...the person I broke off with..errr rather who dumped me like a piece of shit...suddenly,out of the blue, went jobless,carless, homeless and actually had to shift base / country and make a new beginning from scratch..basically do a lot of major ragda/ghisai & what not..all thanks to the global meltdown and yeah yeah ..he is still single..whatever !! I had requested God to teach him a good lesson for having make me go through absolute true-blue hell..but I din't know that God belives in Tit-for-Tat...heeheehee...
Guys reading this,please dont think I am some sadist but if you ever went through what I suffered..you would know how I feel! Pleased is the word! and yeah..God tussi bade cute ho !

And of course, coming to my favourite..bollywood..I have watched quite a lot of movies, them being Fashion, Golmaal Returns, Dostana, Singh is King et all...
Of the three...I would seriously advocate Fashion..it is what I call a damn sexy movie and Priyanka...Mann..you look soooo hot..I was drooling all over you in Fashion & Dostana..and yeah I am straight..so that means a lot! ;-) You got an awesome figure girl..so much so that you inspired me to buy a treadmill and workout for an hour daily and the effect shows :-) By the way,I heard kareena has got all J and decided to don a bikini again...heeheehee..I cant stand that female!

This reminds me...of Bigg Toss...oho..Bigg Boss 2! I am glad Ashutosh of Roadies won this..even though my personal fave was Zulfi of the 3 guys left in the end. (for ppl who dunno what this is about...just skip this part..its a game about losers idling their time off in a sexy house). I am even more glad that Rahul Mahajan dint win this...I cant stand guys like him..he laughs like a horse , has chicken legs and acts worse than a 2yr old ..honestly I dunno what future he is thinking of in bollywood..rather bollywood should be worried about its future with guys like Rahul Mahajan wanting to get in there! I must say he had a whale of a time with the women in the house and dumped then nicely after coming out! Sorry Donica..oops..Monica, you dont have my sympathy coz I am badly baised when it comes to people who are related to anything related to terrorism/terrorists/dons/basically anti-national! I can never be sympathetic to them! and ofcourse,I am glad that strong women like Diana Hayden exists :-) If I had my way, she would be the winner for BB2.

By the way..coming to something nostalgic and incredibly sweet..this is a piece of ad that I came across on youtube..its straight out of my childhood and boy, I never knew this guy and gal in the ad are going to grow up to be quite adorable...Have a look at the video below...



if you still haven't figured out who they are..its shahid & ayesha takia!

All in all..this post might sound quite boring....but I will come back with shorter and better ones. By the way, my office team guys seriously suggested to me that I actually write well ( can you believe they said this after reading my documents on the software we develop) and should take up blogging! Sheesh..I told them that I have one already..thank god they din't ask me the link for it..and one of them actually thinks that I can write a good book! I dunno why he said that even though I am not doing his appraisal this time! ;-)

anyways..I have tried to make a return to the blogworld and yeah I must credit someone with this return..its my sweet blog buddy...Keerthi. Thanks dear for keeping up and smsing me many reminders to getback at this.
This post is for U. :-)

Feeling Inspired!

These Days I hardly Blog! There are quite many things happening and then again not much happening! I know this does not make sense but what the heck!


Yesterday I happened to catch a movie on HBO..a Movie which I had been wanting to watch for a very long time and finally got to see one..Even though I am not a fan of Tragic Melodrama or Drama Or Tragedy..but this was what one would call..Hatke :D! hahaha..so much so for sounding so cliche! But Yes, as I had heard and now that I say it myself..After seeing this movie, you become so much a part of it that it leaves a mark on you and it left me feeling inspired..Inspired to Pursue my Dream/Ambition and Yes Most of all..remembering that Whatever maybe thecase ...when the going gets tough, the tough gets going but you gotta be really tough..


I would like to share few moments from the movie which truly inspired me!
So go ahead and Enjoy the Pursuit of Happyness!



The Trailer of a beautiful Movie




My favourite and One of the most inspiring Scene from this movie



The best display of Emotions I Have seen


So have you seen a movie lately which has left you inspired and basically given you a great message at the end of it? :-)

I m loving it...

I absolutely loving this weather in delhi..its raining cats and dogs here...
and it feels absolutely great...traffic jams notwithstanding!

and yeah was listening to this song on my way back home from offc ...:P nah..partying...:D and it was great fun :D

http://youtube.com/watch?v=H1sHAX2F4PE

Why do I have to do this..?

The Last time I posted, it was sometime in the month of Jan and seems like god did listen :P ..High time I updated this space..

Life has been very topsy turvy last few months and I dont even understand where it is leading me! whether I am on my way to better things or not..I am confused on that as well..

Honestly speaking...The way I think today is sooooooo different from the way I used to think before(say only 6 months back)..somehow I really wonder how come this huge change has come in me!

A. Good thing is Work has been very busy and very good. Professionally Its been a golden period for me, with lot of appreciation for the work that I am doing. After Many years, I have had managers who are very clear in their communications and very appreciative. Honestly Speaking, Its been a very satisfying experience.

B. I have been offered some new positions which I believe are way too good for me professionally, so I am feeling all the more so great about it. :-)

C. I almost got married last year to the guy of my dreams..and could not believe my luck..and yeah actually I shoudl not even believe..coz the whole thing soured out at the last moment, leaving a very bitter taste in my mouth. May be such good things are not supposed to happen to me..or as my well wishers like to say, God saved you from something worse maybe..yeah..maybe!I am still trying to figure that out.

D. Recently, my family has found someone , who on paper, seems like a very good guy for me and yeah, maybe he is the kinda guy one should get married to..But somehow ,I am just not able to connect to this guy at all on an emotional level..and thing is, He somehow never talks about these finer aspects of a relationship and that is what I find very hard to digest! and more so the problem is, he thinks I am the ideal match for him :-ss This gets me even more confused!! I somehow have believed that its the warmth to a large extent which makes a relationship seem happy and worth getting into..But somehow Dont feel that warmth over here :-s! Gosh, I am reallllly confused..

Worst is, My family will ask me to take a call on this sooner or later and I really do not have an answer to it! :-( Can anyone advise me sensibly on whats important and how to decide on this..?

lend me a ear..will ya..?

Okie...so i m pretty sure that u dont have ears..or are selectively deaf..but still does that stop me from talking to u? :P...irritating as I am..as u know me to be..I will continue..so Here I go!

1. Listen dude...I do like to work and actually want to keep myself occupied..but when I say occupied ..I mean only and ONLY 9-6! so ease up this damn irritating workload on me..PLSSSSSS! damn it..last whole week i was working late nites immersed in excel sheets!!!

2. Pls drill some sense into that collegue of mine to not to comeup with daily sob stories of how his mind is not able to concentrate bcoz a. his sis is not well..b..he is missing his daughter c..he is missing his wife d. at times..even missing his dog!! argh...i m senstive enough..but man!!..I have got issues of my own..n they r pretty huge ones..so pls do not come up with these excuses for ur bad performance..its even more unprofessional!! X-( !

3.When I purchased this mobile and got a SIM card put in it..It was for my own use..U C!and I pay for my bills myself..from my own pocket..Then WHY oh WHY?? does my Boss think its his birthright to call me up at anyyyy time of the day!! and pls..I like living in the illusion that my bosses die on weekends..Its such a pleasure to think like that..but the suckers that they are..one of them actually messaged me right now ..on a sunday!..that my work Inbox is full and I need to clear it once m in offc..coz his mail is in the pipeline!! Argh!! Why make me feel the pressure of monday on a sunday itself! X-(

4. This weekend was driving through Connaught Place..My fave hangout in delhi..and it took me ages to get a parking there! This made me really miss my EX-Bf No. 2..(yea i need to number them now..its getting to be a longgg list!)..well not that I actually missed him..its just that his home was right there and I sooooo wished that I could just park my car right there! Sorry dude..I can be mean in my thoughts at times :P

5. December Last week..I suddenly discovered a passion for reading..and went ahead and Bought Some books...but since then..I m just not able to read them! Some are downright boring (Kiran Bedi's I dare ..I love the lady but the book is BORING!), In Conversations with God (was OTT for my brains)..n Some Mario Puzo book..oh yea..Godfather..Its toh proper Italian Masala book..will take time to digest even though I lovee pasta :P

6. And lastly..1 imp point..Why arent there as many people reading my blogs as they were on O3..This is one thing I dont like abt Blogspot! O3 walon..kahan ho yaaron? Pls show up :-) and thanks in advance if u have :D

7. and of course 1 More thing..Dude I have been single since quite some time..okie Its been 3 months only (Only ?:-s) but still its felt like 3 yrs..so get me some good and permanent type ka company..n soon..! and While your are it..keep the f%ck@rs types..like those ex'es of mine..out of such sphere of choice..! Everytime U select some chatta hua badmaash for me..this time I m not going to take that sh&t from U! Okie? :P

Chalo..will shut up here..and if u readers are wondering who is this adressed to..its to my beloved..see the label :P :P HE NEVER LISTENS TO ME! :-s

Ouch it hurts!!

:-) yes it does...

but life does move on..hmph!

i find it very strange that sometime back..it was us who couldnt think any further without each other..and now look where have we come..

but anyways...my life has always been happening..and so it is even now :P even though the happenings may not be soo pleasant..:-)

But a lil Ouch here from me..as it does hurt me!..i dunno abt u..u look v happy from ur pics ..hmph..!

I am bitta confused in life right now..but i hope i get my bearings right sooner than later..

n yes...should i mention..my xmas break went great and chetan bhagat rocks..i loves his One night@call center and Five point someone..Great books..nothing scholarly..but written the way you and me see life ..overall..liked it!

Such is life.. :)

Its getting more and more cold in delhi..and winter..even though I love them..make me feel depressed..for some odd reason..
The London winters on the contrary never made me feel so..but somehow delhi winters make me sad :(

But anyways..as days go by.. I am rethinking many of my decisions..I dunno if cancelling my trip to US was a wise decision..esp when everyone gives me quizzical look when i tell them so..even though I think it was the best I could do at that point of time..
My joining this project in india..its damn hectic..and very different from the kind of work I usually do..But still its new..so i am tryin to get used to it. and enjoy it as well..but I dunno if its a good career move.

And then I am already loosing my faith on people around me..going by the amount of the trust backfiring on me..I came to know of one more thing..
Someone whom I had trusted with a very vital event of my life..and told not to share with anyone else..has very calmly gone ahead and done the same. I was quite taken aback when Someone else questioned me about that part of my life..I dint know how to react..except that no point in really trusting anyone..not even the closest ones..
Sometimes I dont really understand why does god not let me trust people and make me suffer so much for trusting someone even wee bit! Maybe its his way of telling me that its a big bad world..but is it really? I wish its not. Maybe its this optimism that God wants to kill in me..hmmm..

..and then on this day today..every year..I miss someone very very sorely. He had been a guide,friend,philosopher and what not to me..and most importantly my dad..and even though..I am tryin to lead a strong existence without him..I must tell you this dad..for I have never voiced this out with anyone at home..that I miss you every waking moment of my life. I wish you were here with me all these years and we would have lived together through so many ups n downs ( having you by my side..i m 100% sure..it would have been a journey of ups majorly :) )..life would have been entirely different..hai na?
but aisa hai nahi..and its fact that you arent here..but believe me..you are here in my thoughts all the time..

The only consolation to me is that I never missed an oppurtunity to tell you how much I love you :-) thank god for that!

I really wish that this coming year and years so on..I get to make your dreams for me a reality and hopefully you have a smile on your face while you see me doing that :) I love you!

Dhoom Pichak Dhoom..!..!!..!!!

yesterday..was quite a day :-)
even though the day started with a mail from my ex..which bought me down to reality & sorrows of life for sometime..n i chose to delete it without thinking much..aila..cant believe its the same me :P..sigh..
But the day became better..and in the evening..there was this cultural program going on in my friends IT company..n he decided to call me for it at the nth moment..saying that I will love it..so I freshened up in 15 mins flat and rushed to the corporate party so to say..n what do I see there?!
Well There was a rock concertorganised..and there it was..one of my favourite musical bands.. Euphoria playing over there..I think anyone who has grown up during the 2000s and late 90s..and has some music sense..I know for sure knows about this band..
Seeing them play over there..bought back memories of my Engineering 2nd year..when Euphoria had come to perform to my college..and I was one of the backstage organisers..
even though I have lost the page on which i got all their autographs :( ..their memories are fresh in my mind even today..I remember..how musical and full of stamina they all were..
and of course..the most startling discovery was..DrPalash Sen, the lead singer..is way far more good looking in real life than what he looks like on screen..and is a humble doc too..He was practising in Delhi then..i dont know if he still does that..
and of course, it reminded me of one more thing..my college friends ...and that night when euphoria performed..it was such a masti bhari evening..one of the high points in college days..and even though we all have lost contact with each other now..I was happy to see that the band members are still the same guys and also..they still sing the same songs..with even more enthusiasm :-)
I wish to share some fave songs of mine sung by them...over here..
Have a look and lend a ear..and I am sure you will love them too..